I feel as though I'm losing touch with everyone I was once close with. That eventually the ties that bind will be loosen till the extent that when we pass each other its a flick of the head or the wink of an eye. I never want to be one of those people with the people I thought knew me. Time together is hardly anything but an hour at the most.

I want a boy who makes me smile. Sadly that is limited. Anti-social ways will eventually kill me and what's left of me will be nothing but a shell of what I was.
I want someone to make me laugh. I want someon who'll listen to My Chemical Romance and not tell me they're al "fags" and tell me that William Beckett is not a girl. Someone who'll laugh at the aspects of Slash with me but not find completely immoral. Someone who shares the same views as me on every prospect. Maybe differ on ones that will put up a debate between us.

I wish I loved you like I did yesterday.

I wish I loved you to begin with.

The year is nearly over. Bring on a boy with a challenge. Bring on a boy with a fighting chance.