This is a party without the people| this is a show without the sound| so I gave you the clues now find what I found

Sometimes I wonder, am I enough? Am I worthy? Is this worth it? and the answer I seem to come up with is always maybe. Maybe I am, maybe I'm not. Either way there's an answer.

Today I contemplated my feelings for Adam. I felt guilty for liking him because he has a girlfriend who I'm sure is nice and is not a Gertrude at all (Gertrude = girlfriend you dont like because she has the guy you like. Yeah GAG made that up and we're awesome and because we didnt know Alex's girlfriend's name) I mean she doesnt look bad, she looks intelligent enough. And I felt bad a little. He didnt look cute today. I saw him running in the rain yesterday...its not as bad as it sounds. Yesterday's downpour was horrible. And dad had picked me up, we were in the car when I saw him running to the bus. You know how I "run like a duck, Dont worry its cute!" yeah sure, anyways he runs just...weird. His leg's like fly out to the side and its funny. "and he sounds like Michael Jackson" that's not so bad. I can deal with that. Maybe his balls havent dropped yet.

So today the 7th formers decided they'd draw/paint pictures on their faces. Nicholas said he had a heart on his face and that made me swoon. *le sigh* everything that kid does makes me swoon. Oh great so sieze the day starts to play. You ever hear that song? It goes "sieze the day or die regretting the time you lost..." thanks. Thank you M. Shadows and Synyster Gates.
Nicola the lucky bitch is going to their show. It's too far, I mean yeah st. James I can handle, the Studio I can handle but fucking Mt Eden is too far plus the prisons there...uh a 17 year old girl at night near the jail...uh no.

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Thats right I'm excited and with vodafone having a phone deal I can call anywhere in the world for 10 minutes and pay only $2. So monday morning. At 9.00 I shall be calling ticketek and I will order my tickets and catch the bus to pakuranga and get my tickets hopefully. And then catch a bus home. I have my bus card so its sweet. michelle's credit card is expired and she has to go pick it up sometime soon. Hopefully she gets it so I dont have to call them and she can. Oh yeah. Then there's Taste Of (fucking) Chaos which I still need tickets for. Hopefully I'll be getting them this weekend too. It's my birthday and if YOU REALLY LOVED ME YOU'D GET ME THAT HOODIE FROM AGES AGO Like Tom's.

Aww there have been some uber cute photos of the guys going round which is too cool. As many people there are you dont want them on MTV I'm with Cheyne when he says we're the street team and we should be helping them. I mean as long as the guys are successful and not selling out I'm good. We dont get MTV here well not till october 18 but even then I dont get it cause dad doesnt wanna get Sky. Which is fine because I dont want to be subjected to crappy vjs like on C4. Seriously there's a thing in my family. All us kids hate Joel Defries with a passion. He's not funny, he cant present and he sucks at his job.

So the school wants to get a uniform, I dont if I've said this yet. But anyways apparently its gonna go through. And my views on this have changed. On one hand its good for our school. On the other hand it represses out individuality and all throughout life we've been told to be an individual, that we are all special. But how can we be special and express ourselves creatively when we're forced to conform and one of their many sheep who they wish to control and make obey their every wish? its ridiculous. Personally I would want a uniform BUT I have rules. It is to only be a blazer. This way we still have our individuality and freedom and they have their little sheep thing.
But with Senor Woods on the board, compromise is NOT an option. Well maybe you should fucking reinforce the dress code you dickshit. If maybe you reinforced it and told people to not wear lavalavas or Micro minis, jandals and socks and what not maybe MAYBE it would be better. Admit it. The uniform is just your last grasp at control. Control which I hope will crumble to a death so horrible. A death that results in boycotts and protests and a large amount of angry parents.