Will we always say we tried?

Confidence in self: High
Confidence in hand: Low
Morale is low. Send more cookies mom. Sending the love back to the boys
Many have died in combat, others seriously injured.
It shouldnt have to end like this.
Its not right.
I shouldnt be seeing innocent lives ended.
I shouldnt be the one ruining innocent lives either.

Rations are running out, the last letter was so long ago.
When will this end?
When will the killing spree stop?
When will I get sent clean clothes?
When will the hand that holds the gun finally realise that what its doing could be good?
When will it see that what it does might be worth something?

The answer is never.
The hand will never realise its credibility.
It will never realise that it has worth
talent
fame
fortune
it will never ever realise this
instead it will do its day job

And continue to pull the trigger