to make me sound sad

I wish David would read my message and reply.
It makes me sad but I've somehow convinced myself that this boy who looks twelve is the greatest thing in the world.
I feel so dumb. I mean he only plays bass (btw whats it with me and bassists?)
If anything Dan should mean my world since his lyrics are so awesome. But its not.

If you dont know what I'm talking about...This Providence. They are basically the bees knees in my eyes.
I am a giant Teenie right now and it makes me sick.
But you dont understand that I haven't felt this way while listening to an album in a long time. If I still used a cd player they would never leave the cd player.
And since I'm dirt poor and can only afford a shuffle I cant really be assed going back and playing them...I still do though I go back and play them on repeat all day.
I dance around and sing to them when no one is home.
I also plan on cleaning while listening to them.
I don't even know if the lyrics can relate to me. All I know is that the melody picks me up and I dont feel so stressed.

I make myself sick.
Anymore of this feeling and they're going to kick Boys like Girls off my top 25 most played list on itunes (btw I dont even know how that happened. shuffle plays them like that I swear i am totes over that song) and they're also going to kick TAI back a notch on my top friends list on myspace. And I LOVE TAI. They've already kicked Panic off and I love panic.
Dave Melillo never leaves the top friends list. I love him more than Cute is does.

yes I am a nerd when it comes to my bands.
Call me what you want/
but I pretty much Love This Prov. And I am going to buy their other album once I have money or decide that I dont hate RealGroovy wellington.
Because right now I do. They are SLACK
just saying.


Oh
This Prov.

So the past few days

have been hectic. I started drawing my new comic. Its nothing fancy. Just a three panel well two panels really. I've done the first and am starting on the second. Its about a dinosaur and the strip is called The Dino. I'm thinking I'm going to change it to Rwwr and Cheep once I introduce Cheep into the story.
The strips are pointless. There's no plot. But yeah.

I got new underwear today. I got a pair of panties and two camisoles. One of them match my panties.
Its awesome I'll get a matching pair for the other one.

We redecorated the flat yesterday. It looks delicious now.
Pictures when I get them.

And Teddy Geiger walked in front of us on the way home. I only noticed him from his pretty hair.
Speaking of hair I'm thinking I'm going to get a bob when I go home. I need a haircut badly

Keep taking baby steps

And here's the best part
It's got the best start
No one saw this coming from a mile away
So unexpected, I know you meant it
If I can't have you I'll dream about you
So I'll be sleeping because this dreaming
Is as close as I can get to getting close to you
So close my eyes, don't wake me up
Keep taking baby steps

Ivy hearts October Fall
A lot.

So I spent seventy dollars on underwear the other day. Then I got buyers remorse because NO ONE needs to spend that much on underwear. At least it was like one bra, two pair of undiewears and some tights. Some bright pink tights.

I loved it.

Do I want to ask Teddy for his number?
Do I really want McDonald's boy to be texting me still? Its been six months...I think I might be over it but is he? I mean I feel nothing for this kid.


Panic at the disco tickets are booked.
Not preordering the Ciwwaffles album since shipping is too expensive (yeah fbr cheat me out why dont you)
Sha got our merch we ordered in MARCH
I need to email someone at FBR about my order since Jen won't reply to me. Its ridiculous.

Why do boys suck so bad? Someone please explain.
Maybe I should become a lesbian.
Home soon. Exams are closer.
I've handed one of two assignments. I should really start on the second right? Right.
I took new pictures.
I need a haircut.



Its ICE BAT I love my uglydolls

Here to catch you up on me

How did your day start off?
Waking up at 6.30am. Crying in intense pain from this weird pain in my lower right abdominal

When's the next time you will see the person who absolutely takes your breath away?
Tomorrow night. Teddy at midnight expresso. In his tight pants- but not too tight...*sigh*

Are you waiting for something?
Not today at least

Last text message you received?
Umm...something from Sam...about still being in an appointment

Last myspace message you received?
Sha?

Does anyone hate you?
Probably.

Where are your siblings?
At home. With my mommy

Are you happy with life?
It could be better

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Yeah...it was 15 pages

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
Depends on the situation

Are you a jealous person?
...depends

If you could have one person with you right now, who would it be?
...Teddy? Brendon? Bestfriend Sha?

Do you miss anyone?
Yes. My ho's in Auckland

Do you get 8 hours of sleep everyday?
Yeah...basically

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?
No, I don't hate Jake

Is there anyone who understands your relationship status?
Sha, we are always in this situation

Is there something you always wear?
my claddagh ring, my eyeliner and glasses

Have you ever thought about converting your religion?
yes..."orthodox jew?"

What are you going to do after this?
lie down

How's the weather today?
nice. A little chilly

What time is it?
4.38pm

Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
hopefully

When's the next time you'll see your closest friends?
June 25

What were you doing this morning at 7am?
crying in pain

What radio station do you listen to the most?
nothing

What are you listening to?
Malcolm in the middle.

Who were the last 3 people to text you?
Sam...Siobhan and Sha

Is there anything that you are craving right now?
no

Have you ever been arrested?
No

What do you need to be doing right now?
a lot

Who do you hate?
I think everyone knows who I hate.
That person and Chris. He's a pain.

What do you wear to bed?
PJs.

Has anyone got on your nerves lately?
Yeah a lot of people. Alia.

Do you think you'll be married in 10 years?
Hopefully.

What were you doing at 6 pm Saturday night?
I really can't remember

Do you know anyone with the same name as you?
...no not at all.

Has it really been that long?

Oh man its been agggeess since my last post. TBH I forgot this thing even existed till a "brad" commented here.
In fact I kinda just thought this was a link from my lj to something else.

Let's see whats new with me...
I'm in uni. I'm in lust with this boy who works at a coffee store. No longer in love with Mat. Emile was nothing but a phase I went through because he represented home to me.
There thats it.
Tonight I pined for Teddy Geiger. That 'teddy' is so cute. Going to see him on Friday.

you can currently spot me at Massey Wellington campus.
And I'm also breaking away from wellington to go see patd. Tai. CS in august. Fuck yeah.
My stomach hurts.
I'm sleeping it off now

BDO

Yes I had the time of my life.
And the staff at Sounds knows it.
Thanks.
Nikki is the bestest for letting me in and letting me meet MCR
Steve Cadman...you daughter can choke on an extension and a bottle of peroxide.
It was definately worth the three hour wait.
HOWEVER
Mikey sweetie, dollface you need to cheer up a little.
Frankie it would've been nice to have you there
Ray, Bob, Gee you kids are sweethearts.

BDO 2007
Best year of my life ever.

Survivor: It takes a brain to be one

Todays mood: Very lethargic with a taste of chaos.
Needed: Much sleep and rest
Remedy: Go home early from work
Reasoning: Over staffed for the day
Decided: Much rest will cure the aches and pains.
Cretivity levels: Low as ever
Remedy: Sleep. Reading. Writing.
Slumps: To disappear

its been a summer

OMG its been a while. Thought I might sit down and actually write a blog for once. Instead of just stringing words together to look like I blog.

Here's how it goes:

My grandmother will be coming here to live with us a for a few months soon. Vacation.
VACATION FROM WHAT EXACTLY?!
She lives in fucking communist vietnam where she doesnt work. I guess not working for a living sure does make you tired. I mean I wouldnt know. I've been doing 48 hour weeks lately. Sick at that.
Urgh I dislike the woman to say the least.
She gets on everyone's case.
"You go out too much"
Ok...Its my frist time going out and its not like there's much to do in the fucking countryside in fucking communist vietnam
"Dont talk to your mother like that"
Dude I talk to my mother how she talks to me. With sass. Funny sass. And Crude language. Where do you think I got my potty mouth from? My father? Mr Military? I dont think so.
Not to say my dad isnt a potty mouth either. He's just more controlled than my mother and he's not exactly American Dad. He's more..."Fuck you. I'm an exwanted communist criminal. In YO FACE!" dad.
So yes she's gonna be here. We're talking months here. Not weeks. MONTHS
So does anyone wanna share their bed with me? I hear I'm a lovely bed share-er
Back to my point yes.
My grandmother + living her with me = quick suicide.

Christmas

Is way to commercial for me.
Plus I'm a buddhist we dont do christmas.
Foreign concept.
Its gonna be dinner. At home. With the family. Hopefully.
No presents.
We usually have a tree but since we moved last year we didnt bring the tree with us.
Christmas is a crock anyway.
I mean seriously.
If a fat guy came down my chimney I would probably poke him with one of those rods for the fire place.

Work

Working with like a day or two if I'm lucky off.
Luckily I'm not Bryan. Kid is working at Sounds and at ECM. 7 Days.
Suck.
But that's heaps of money.
I actually enjoy the christmas rush.
Seriously.
I wish I was kidding but I'm not.
Yeah...freak.
Its more fast pace then the usual slow sunday mornings or slow friday nights.


Money

I've been living off loose change for the past week. Thank GOD I have all this money coming my way from working for the past two weeks. I did the math. It seems I might have quite a bit of money. Macbook pro fund. Fuck yeah.
Urgh and I'm gonna get that bear from Pumpkin patch. I'll see if I can find a picture...ok SCREW YOU PUMPKIN PATCH.
They dont have a picture of it.
Actually... I might get me a camera. I need a new one. Sahweet

I think thats enough right?
Oh I've written a new story. But now its on hiatus. I think I'm gonna focus on stories I've lacked focus on...Oh thank you take the lead for restoring my creativity for one of my stories. Catillion and all.
Mmm Antonio Banderas. Sexy accent.

Ivyshortcake Over and out

bunny

I want a bunny.
Someone buy me a bunny.
Please.
I'll be good.
I'll feed it.
Bathe it.
Cuddle it.
Take it for walks.
But you have to get me a bunny.
For Christmas.
Love.

Ivyshortcake

I'll be there when your heart stops beating

11.19.2006
So, as most of you know we have been on the nothing rhymes with circus tour for about a week now. This tour has come together so beautifully and is exactly what we had hoped for. Walking on stage each night and seeing everyone in the crowds eyes light up, and every ones mouths singing all thewords is beyond description. We would like to thank every person who has come to any the shows so far. We hope you had as much fun as we did. And to all the people who will be seeing us in the near future, we can not wait for you to see the show we have put together.
PORNOMIME
- spencer

Dear Mr. Smith.
Every time I hear the word pornomime I think of two things:
1. You boys need to get laid if every time is porno time.
and
2. You guys are watching mimes do it?
That is disgusting. Filthy sick disgustingly icky and eww it would quiet. Very silent. And trapped in a box.
Very trapped in a box. And invisible one.

I would pay to go see this if I didnt have exams and had money.
Christmas is coming up. Ivy wants a hoodie.
Mainly that hoodie that I posted before my birthday or you know one of the Cute ones. I hear their spiffy like ass.

I need to study but I'm starting at twelve on the dot because thats one of my ocds at the moment.
On the plus side my hair pulling OCD has slowed down and I may still have hair when I turn 34.
currently listening to...Silence ok maybe the hum of the laptop and the builders machines.
Still....waiting for my Boxset to arrive. Come on NZpost. Just this once deliver it for me.

You cant spell Deliver with out the devil and you cant spell Deliver without the liver.
Say whaaa?

There are new P!ATD shirts instore when you buy the album. Kids if you dont have the album go buy it. AND if you do...go but it again and get a shirt.
Sha and I have come to the conclusion that if I let her be the bigger P!ATD fan I can be the biggest Cute fan in NZ. Though personally the girl didnt know about Soc...so BOO to her. You cant be a fan if you dont know the stalkerish facts my dear...ok that was just weird.
But yes. Any bitch in NZ who thinks they are the bigger Cute fan...I dear them to duel me. I feel that there are only two bands that I will ever feel in love with 100000% and that is Fall Out Boy and Cute Is What We Aim For. The reason is because I remember watching channel 4 when it was Channel 4 and not this c4 crap and hearing Where is your boy tonight. It stayed in my head for a week till I downloaded it. And everytime my computer crashed and I forgot the song I would find myself humming it or singing it till I redownloaded the song and got it on disc. And I discovered this band on my own. As with Cute though dont ask me how I discovered them because I dont remember. But I know that I was there. The purevolumes the hiphop at Ihops the Crushes and the I dont care if its the mooon we wents. I was there. I mean with panic! Vinnie asked me to download them because they didnt work for him. They did for me and I downloaded them and sent them to him. So I didnt really 'discover' them on my own.
Vinnie was there.
The Academy, Gym Class Heroes and all the other bands I love, I mean whose to say I dont love them the same but Fall Out Boy and Cute Is What We Aim For will always stand out to me. Because I found them before the rest of the country did.

And that makes me an elitest. But I dont care.
Because that is how I roll.
I roll with the elitest.
Because at times.
I am a bitch.
And it is now twelve.
And I shall study for my English exam tomorrow.

-That. Ivyshortcake
-No that one.
-The other one
-The artist formally known as Ivysaurr formally known as Ivyspoon formally known as Ritalin_kidd formally known as Ivy